Friday, August 26, 2005

Love

Those that have known me for the longest time also know I have weird parents. Typical & weird, typically weird.

No names or events have been exaggerated or disguised.

My dad calls me for his almost daily dose of daughter-talk. All in the middle of a conversation about not eating bythe roadside stalls in India and taking lao sai pills for all my biz trips. He suddenly started laughing like a banshee, like mad! I couldn't stop him! Then I hear my mother screaming in the background trying to burst my eardrums about dad farting with aircon on. (FYI, dad has farts of nuclear catastrophic proportions and takes immense joy in releasing them and getting a reaction out of it).
Dad continues to laugh like a banshee and launches a counter attack. Complains to daughter about mom snoring at night keeping him awake.

Very in love hor to tahan all this.


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This year I have found out that I have three friend's whose dads have passed away. Countless uncles & aunts who have terminal illness. Infinite, unarticulated silences passed between us, while I could only muster weak, awkward mumbles of 'sorry' in bid to break the silence. When I was younger my greatest fear was my grandmother and parents dying. I couldn't deal with it. Every thought clamps its torturous vices on my heart and physically I feel pain. If it were a taste, it would be the sour bile that fills your mouth just before you puke your meal out. In my mind, everyone my age should still have healthy parents and older relatives. Families are always happy and people know not to leave the caring of parents to the helpers. And I mean spending time with rather than physically cleaning since that places a huge strain on resources; though I do know of a guy who quit his job to take care of his father who was starting to lose his memory, but that's a story for another day. Even now, dealing with death, I feel like the little girl that poked her finger into a perfectly frosted cake and trying to cream smooth it over, hoping that nobody will notice. In my mind, it's all just in my mind.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Living alone with the lazy girl #311

proud.proud.proud.proud.proud.proud. Oh wait...toppling over. *rearranges head back on shoulders*

No more sadistic short-cuts to cleaning the home.

I present....*drum rolls, power lights dramatically beam on one-by-one*



Teriyaki drumstick with the masquerader mee pok Posted by Picasa

OK, so not that purty but oh-so delish! Just took a tablespoon of Lee Kum Kee Sauce for Teriyaki Chicken (from sweet crappymango) and 1/3 normal drinking cup of water and a non-stick pan over stove. Chickenfeed sia wuwuahahaha...

Am also universe's best salami-cheese coated codfish maker (pictures another day).
It also helps that I'm extremely gifted at improvising ingredients and estimating amount of seasoning needed. Have only one thing to say to Michelin five-star chefs: you wish you had my talent.

Brilliance is an understatement.

Will go find a pillow big enough for my head now.

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Check out my new hair!!!

Having long hair for a day was fun. We bought it at a spur of the moment 'cos my boss wanted curlier longer hair and I wanted coloured hair. In the end, the long hair looked best on me. Oh well...will look ala Natalie Portman in Closer some other time. Autumn will be a great time to don the wig, no perpiration and the wind will weave through my straight, shiny hair wuahahaha...


New Hair Posted by Picasa


Except having in long hair is not so glamourous in a squatting toilet (trust me, I tried). All the hair starts falling in front of you and it's such a mess!

Hair always had a way of changing how I felt. Having my grandmother tying my two pony tails every morning, twirling around in my little pink tutu with plaits were probably my only recollection of having long hair that can be messed around with. When I reached secondary school, I wanted to look like Sailor Mercury (remember Sailormoon craze?) - with her short, spunky blue hair she looked so pretty, yet gave the feeling she was quietly unique (she was the smartie in the group). In those years, being plump, puberty pimples and having buck teeth isn't usually belle du jour material; so Sailor Mercury I wanted to be. Off I went to the neighberhood auntie hairdresser, showed her a picture and she started laughing at me. I joined her too, knowing how silly I must have sounded. But the desire to be unique and feel better about myself was stronger than all that. I remember lightness in my spirit, as if by having short hair I would be set free. Then, with that first cut, I became haircut-high. A few years later, when rules in school became less rigid, I turned to something stronger. Hair dyes. Oh, they were da bomb. My favourites were the red based dyes, over a few months red would turn into auburn and then blonde; with each time the colour changes, a different me would emerge from the cocoon. Then boyfriends came. Almost all were enamoured with long-haired girls. So I traded in the dyes and short dos for the coy and genteel look; though I'm sure it didn't fool anyone. Least of all me. Not that I didn't enjoy feeling like a please-protect-me-wide-eyed bunny, but it just wasn't me.


coy & genteel Posted by Picasa

By the time I started work, I preferred the androgynous, float like a butterfly but sting like a bee look. Unpredictable dye jobs on short hair made me a cross between the patterned-crossbreed cats under my void deck or an atypical chao ah lian in a typically 'boring' market research job or just me. At the time where business wear was supposed to be my fashion, I go punk rock. So rebellious hor ;P Guess I was also at the stage where I was tired of 'safe' haircuts and not 'knowing' how my hair would turn out just put me on the edge.


bombshell!!! Posted by Picasa

Hmmm...with autumn arriving, maybe it's time for another metamorphism.

Friday, August 19, 2005

Waxing lyrical about mangoes

The best thing about having good friends from other countries is you like them enough to want to know them beyond their personalities. You want to know the country/ countries they were in and the good, bad and ugly that they experience. Another thing even better is also when you're traveling over to meet that good friend in the country they were from. Then you start amassing massive amounts of information so you wouldn't seem so ignorant and can start asking intelligent questions. Along the way, you encounter many quirky and wonderful stories while searching for more more more information. This, is one of them.

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Aam aadmi: The golden mango syndromeThe Asian Age India H.Y. Sharada Prasad

August is usually a busy month all over the country. Half way through the monsoon, farmers find their hands full of work on their fields. In schools and colleges the academic term would have got into full stride, with the distractions of student union elections left well behind. Industrial production is not hampered by too many holidays and trade would be in full swing. We find even our parliamentarians, for a change, taking their work seriously. Not that everything is tickety-boo the nation's composure has been shaken by the century's worst downpour in Mumbai and its conscience troubled by the Nanavati report.

Set against the background of these grave national concerns, what I am going to write about — a personal worry — will appear ridiculous, even bathetic, to most people. But since I have experienced it for years and years and been wanting to write about it, let me take the risk of being considered puerile and put it down on paper.

The anxiety I experience in the month of August can be called the golden mango syndrome. I have lived in Delhi for almost 50 years. I am not one of those lucky ones who escape to a hill station in the hot months. What has enabled me to stand the rigours of Delhi's summer is the mango. If Blake asked the tiger: "Did he who made the lamb make thee?," I ask the mango: "Did he who made Delhi's summer so hot make thee?," and send up my heart-felt (rather, belly-felt) thanks.

Delhi has an unusually long summer. From the end of March to the middle of July you have a hot dry summer when you are roasted. Then come the rains and you are steam-cooked for another two months. Fortunately Delhi has also an unusually long mango season. For nearly four months you get a succession of varieties of our national fruit. First you have the humbler varieties — Sindoori, Safeda, Siroli — which haven't shed their sourness. By the time the Safeda begins tasting fully sweet, the main variety of the region, Dussehri, makes its appearance to hold the field for almost two months. Then comes its paler yellow rival, larger in size, Chausa. Weaving in and out between the two is the Langda, which refuses to don the courtly colours and insists on looking rustic, but its heart is honey.

A Bengali will remark, "None of these can compare with our Malda," and a Maharashtrian will assert with supreme conviction, "If the mango is the king of Indian fruits, the Ratnagiri Apus is the king among mangoes, the Shahenshah. Who can beat it in looks, taste and fragrance?" Of all types of patriotism, mango patriotism is the most aggressive and vocal. Bangalore will swear by its Raspuri, Badami, and Malgova; Goa by its Alphonso; Madras by its Salem Gundu; and Gujarat by its Valsad Apus. Andhra will proclaim that its Imam-Pasand and Cheruku-Rasaloo are second to none. There is no variety so humble, be it Neelam or Totapuri, that does not have its taker. After all, the purse controls and rationalises taste. The mango may be the king of fruits. But it is not merely for kings. It is also the fruit of the common people, the aam aadmi, if punning is permitted.

During the year many fruits come and go — plums, peaches, pears, apricots, lychees, melons, and pineapples — like bit actors on the stage. Oranges, grapes, and apples stay longer. The faithful banana is with us all the time. But none of them has the dominance of the mango.
None commands our allegiance as it does. That is what makes my Augusts so full of apprehension. At the beginning of the month we would be consuming mangoes at their juiciest. Towards the middle of the month we get the feeling that the peak has been crossed and that the fruit allows itself to be bitten too limply. And before the month draws to a close, our neighbourhood fruit-seller announces: "Babuji, the season is over." The worry that fills my Augusts is how I would be able to cope with mangolessness until the next mango season. This is where, I suppose, memory and hope play a part.

The mango grows almost all over India. Along with the neem and the tamarind it must be the most widely cultivated tree in our country. The intimate links of all three with our country are proclaimed by their botanical names — Mangifera Indica, Azadirachta Indica, and Tamarindus Indica. All three are good shade trees and are used for woodwork and timber. The sour green mango is as much in demand as the ripe fruit for it is a popular pickle. Mango leaves are used for decorating doorposts and platforms during festivals. There are few experiences as heady and invigorating as walking in a mango orchard in full bloom in spring with the bees buzzing. Weavers, cloth-printers and jewellers have lovingly used the mango motif. It is popular not only with classical poets but with folk bards and story-tellers as well.

Mango cultivation involves considerable mastery of the science of grafting, in which the nawabs of Uttar Pradesh and the Deccan had great skill. Many are the stories told of the old mango gourmets. It is said that some of these nawabs went round their orchards when the fruits were still ripening and indicated their choice. In due course those which bore their initials were plucked and cooled for a couple of days in a flowing stream before they were cut and served with due ceremony. These mango parties were no ordinary affairs.

Such refinement is a far cry from a true story concerning an editor I knew from Karnataka who was well known for his love of a particular variety of succulent mango. Once he asked his servant to buy two dozen mangoes which he sucked with his usual relish. When he counted the seeds he found only 23. He admonished the lad for allowing himself to be duped by the fruit-seller. The boy insisted he had brought 24 and showed the master that there were 24 skins. "Then don't worry," said our editor, gently rubbing his capacious paunch.

Americans, we are told, do not like mangoes because they find they taste like shoe polish and smell like turpentine. Probably the mangoes from Colombia do — I am not sure if Colombians know of the importance of grafting. An abiding mango memory I have relates to Moscow. At a banquet that Indira Gandhi gave the Soviet leaders, mangoes were served for dessert. They created a sensation. Many of the top leaders asked whether they could take them home to show their grandchildren. It was a sight to see Cabinet ministers and bemedalled generals slipping mangoes into their pockets like schoolboys taking away chocolates.

H.Y. Sharada Prasad was adviser to Prime Ministers Indira Gandhi and Rajiv Gandhi

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I can relate to this because in Singapore mangoes can be distinguished as well. Philippine mangoes are the juiciest and sweetest (I haven't tasted the said mangoes in this article so I wouldn't be able to compare hee...). Then followed by the skinny mangoes which always holds a surprise when you bite into it. You wouldn't know if they're going to be sour or sweet or both. Then there are the unripe lime-green mangoes which are delish for Thai salads, yum. Living in a city, who cares how mangoes or any crop for that matter are grown. They always appear nicely cleaned, wrapped in cellophane and ready to be eaten almost immediately in our supermarkets. But as I browsed through IHT today, this article on crop diversity jumped at me. The exhortation in the article is true, crop diversity is not only about survival though to me her argument regarding quality of life is a new angle and one which I can relate to easily. Imagine walking through the isles looking for your favourite cherry tomato and only finding big, red, juicy looking ones but getting disappointed when it tastes bland. I have fallen into such traps before and chosen the nicest looking vegetables/ fruits, only to be let down time and again. What's red wine without knowing if its a shiraz or burgundy, or originating from Australian, French or California wine?

But despite this argument on quality of life being more seductive, crop diversity is about survival and should not stray far from letting people understand we need to ensure genetic diversity in various crops. If you haven't noticed already the weather is increasingly erratic, temperatures in summer are soaring and suffocating, winters are bitter and unwelcoming. These crops are needed because there are some that are suitable to be grown and have adapted to certain harsh environments and are able to withstand future environmental hazards.

Oh and by the way, erratic weather is caused by global warming. Generally saying, by countries which refuse to sign Kyoto protocol and hide under the Asia Pacific Climate pact. Who are by the way, countries which are catering to the desire of our need for more. More cars, more clothes, more plastic bags. I have no solution for capitalism and I'm not going to be hypocritical to say that we should go back to using candles (though that's very romatic). But I do believe that it is not necessary to waste resources. For example, bringing your own bags to the supermarket, not buying leather goods, supporting green products (even if its more expensive, that's only temporary because they don't have economies of scale). Hmm...am I way off the tangent by this? Nature has made it so that everything and everyone is interrelated. We cannot expect to see things in singularity.

But living in Shanghai makes me realise how sweet the fresh air in Singapore, even when I'm walking along a busy traffic street. Seeing the dolphins in San Diego in their natural habitat makes me realise how much I enjoy their natural exuberance and playfulness (not even one-tenth comparable to them in captivity). I'd like to have all that, the way it was. Can I please? Pretty please?

Friday, August 12, 2005

August 5 - 6: First mini-Typhoon account


Typhoon Matsa knocking on my door Posted by Picasa

Picture above depicts beautiful maroonish clouds against the navy blue backdrop, twas the night before Typhoon Matsa. Coyingly passing by Shanghai, Typhoon Matsa never truly unleashing the inner strength hidden in her. Despite that, the windows of my 30th storey apartment was vibrating as the storm Matsa brought came down relentlessly for the next full day as well. In all honesty, I was a little freaked out. Never had I ever come close to a natural disaster before. My little apartment formed part of the typhoon symphony, the howling winds were also forming a percussionwith the window panes.


Dry but stuck at home the next morning at 5a.m Posted by Picasa

The next morning, the mist had an ethereal yet quiet uneasiness. Though I was just enthralled by the whole experience. I wasn't anywhere near the centre of the typhoon but it certainly gave me a glimpse of what others must have felt at the face of a natural disaster. Helplessness. Fear. Flase bravado. Loneliness. Recalling everything one might have done wrongly or someone that one might have done wrong to. Dreaming of places we have never been but always told ourselves to explore.

And as the sun shined through the third day, I went to Carrefour to shop for fresh groceries. No frozen food or instand noodles will do. Nothing like fresh food to remind your senses how wonderful it is to feel alive.

Shoe Whore


black & (white from months ago) Posted by Picasa

My good friend Josephine is in town. What kind of host am I if I don't bring her shopping and make her feel less like a mad woman shopping? hee.... >.<


Sensible on the right, fun on the left. Which road to take? Posted by Picasa


Four pair of shoes for only SGD 40!!! I'm in heaven...shoe heaven. Have distributed them around my bed, they will either allow me to look good running away in my dreams, or hopefully give me the strength to fly when I fall (common theme to my dreams).

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

I love Pocky

You Are Strawberry Pocky
Your attitude: fresh and sweet. Comforting, yet quirky ... quietly hyper. You always see both sides to everything



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The recent lack of writing anything is due to having friends over from SG who is staying with her colleague; who happens to be my friend (because I was introduced to her by this friend). So now, nights are spent cooking dinner and enjoying each other's company :)

Saturday, August 06, 2005

Charlie and The Chocolate Factory

"There's plenty of money out there. They print more everyday... Only a dummy would give this (Golden Ticket) up for something as common as money.

Are you a dummy?" ~ Charlie's Grandfather

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Oooooohlando Blooooom, be still my beating heart!

This is what I've been doing the last few hours of my working day.

Now he goes on my list of obsessions - Brad Pitt, Hugh Jackman, Johnny Depp.

Monday, August 01, 2005

Challenge - Urban Epic

Update: I saw my entry! They're all really good, there are some 'monstrous epics' that went within 100 words. Go take a look for yourself :)

The Challenge - Write a story of 100 words about love, desire, passion and living, in an urban context. Deadline: Midnight, today.

Join anyone? Here's my entry. Perhaps a bit too literal but what's been flashing around me in Shanghai at night.

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3 a.m. Bar Rouge. Pretenses do not exist at this time. Red vulva bulbs glimmered with passion and hedonism above the bar that sat as an island in the middle of the club. Patrons continuously ordered exorbitant drinks, buying false time, seemingly for them to ponder over what they wanted. The twins, deceit and desire were making their rounds as usual that time of the night. Baiting the ones in love and cajoling the reserved with their sweet musky scent of sex. No one would admit, but no one would deny that love was the last thing on their minds.