I am random

Not too busy having fun to post, but have been given an onslaught of work that seems overwhelming for small, slight twenty-fi...I mean nineteen year old shoulders.

Will be off to Hangzhou and then quickly zipping off to Philippines. Trying to make it a mini-break but I suspect it will not be enough to take my mind off looming report, with difficulty level signalling bright neon fuschia.

Note to self: Do NOT be late for another domestic train ride, lest you want to be harrassed by touts with an impending heart attack from sprinting only to see the gates close on you with five minutes to spare.

Have received verbal confirmation that I am random. Change topics in conversations too quickly. Future flatmate comprained. You can see where this quirky duet is going.

Numbers are important. Two birthday cards to be completed by tomorrow, have decided they have to be handmade. Not because I'm masochistic. I just like to make life extra challenging.

New apartment found, furnishings at our beckoning. No more fugly leather black/ turqoise/ brown sofas. No more bathroom shiverings in winter. No more small kitchen that bumps me blue-black every corner. Domestic goddess waiting to blossom (except when it comes to washing dishes, folding clothes and changing bedsheets).

Personalized pickup line: "I'm doing market research on trends an opinion leaders. You don't look so alternative but I think you're alternative, buy you a beer?". At this juncture, dj with nice laughing eyes will offer to buy me a beer instead :P

Be back on June 11.

puke-inducing

After taking care of M the past 2 days, I realised how tiring and helpless it's like taking care of someone ill. Tiring mentally to think about ways to make them feel better plus entertain them and helpless, not to be able to soothe their pain. Except by standing by with a sorry-you're-hurting-look accompanied by frequent stroking/ patting of stomach/ shoulder, depending on where it hurts more. For the first time, I actually cooked porridge for someone else! Usually I'm relegated to the aww-u feeling better-ok buhbye you rest well-girlfriend role, but suddenly fully thrust into aww-anything else I can get you-friend role brings it to a whole new level. The intensity of caring for someone else when there's nothing more meant into the relationship is something new to me - so seemingly selfless that it's puke inducingly sweet. Unfortunately, contact breeds feelings. If I do go back to home today to take care of M, I am afraid that my mind may wire itself to think that it means more than it should. Or not. But I am not staying around to find out the answer, avoidance is the key.

Chino gypsies of the world unite

My ex-msn fellow bitch-addict has now transformed himself into google-talk bitch. As usual we while away our time multi-tasking (only man that comes to mind now who can multi-task) - bitching about his stupid bosses, me moaning about boring worklife, that and everything else in between where our warped minds takes us.

This morning had us talking about the constant wanderlust, desire to travel and/ or live in as many places as possible. "Welcome to my world" he boomed (exaggeration mine). "We must be direct descendents of caravan traders" he said. "But gypsies sound more exotic leh" I retorted. Thus, the term "Chino gypsies" was discovered. In Teochew (he's one), we will be inaugurated as the "bo si tiam han" (In Teochew: 'bo' means don't have; 'si' means time; 'tiam' means quiet or still; 'han' describes us as direct descendents of han tribe) - this literally means we can't keep still in one place. Illustrious members include General Cheng Ho and also single-eyelids Mongolians (so sexy) can join too.

Taking exams to a new level

Polite prizes
2006-05-15
NEARLY 900 residents who have passed an etiquette examination will get a prize from the government, the Shanghai Women's Federation said yesterday. So far 17,900 residents have received etiquette training and passed the examination since the "A Million Families Learn Etiquette" project was launched on February 25. A random drawing will be held every month to give prizes to those who have passed the exam.

Silences

Carrying other people's burdens unsolicited and willingly is tiring. Somehow, despite all these not being mine to bear, I find myself wanting to offer some semblance of comfort and positiveness to them. I don't know what posessed me to act like such a martyr. Unfortunately, I'm not so noble, just willing it to distract myself. And also waiting, for someone to realise that though I'm dependable, sometimes I just want to hold hands, quietly, silently seeking solace. Thankful that I don't have to say a word; understanding that it is all I need and I really do not want to be talking about anything.

People talk too much, maybe they just need to reassure themselves they exist.

The hardest words to hear and to say

I don't love you.

From a daughter to her mother.

Will you forgive me?

From a mother to her daughter.


*SIGH*

Someone out there is stealing switches.

'Cos evidently the air-con switch has been missing for the past couple of weeks. It's rip-off-your-clothes kind of suffocating heat. Am sweating lipids in here, with my 'shiny' face for all to see. Also breathing out steam.

Weird ways to commit suicide #265

Go on a diet of only celery. Let your body consume itself with the difficulty of digesting it.

Headlines: Coming clean

Dunch know how to be non-apathetic about the upcoming elections when hogging the limelight is a missing form.